Health

I have been obsessed with being healthy. That was a goal for the year and I think I'm on the right track. I have lost some weight and want to lose a little more, but then I got to thinking, "Do I want to be skinny or healthy?"

We live in a society where people are obsessed with being skinny. I don't think people realize that skinny doesn't mean healthy. We are all drilled to think that skinny means pretty, skinny means success, skinny is what everyone needs to be. So, do I want to be skinny or healthy?

I have people in my life who have made comments about my weight. I have never been overweight, but smaller girls have made comments that I am bigger. I actually dated someone smaller than me and he would comment about my size. I have also had people ask if I eat or not because I am skinny. I do eat. I actually eat a lot! These comments have gotten in my head and have made me believe I need to be a size two in order to be considered "pretty." That size will never happen since I have a naturally big butt. I need to come to terms with this because I have been obsessing about my weight.

I count my calories and I work out. This is healthy, right? Well it is but, I weigh myself six times a day. That is NOT healthy. I think I need to be anorexic skinny in order to be healthy. This is NOT true. Being too skinny causes health problems too!

I struggle because I have an athletic build, which doesn't fit the "skinny" girls aim for. I look bigger then some girls my height, but I'm at a healthy weight and that's all that matters!

I have decided I want to be healthy! I want to live a long life. I want to do all I can to prevent diseases.I want to be healthy inside and out. I don't need to be skinny, but I do need to be healthy!